Awesome Finds – 1

I was actually not sure on what to post today. I had a variety of things in my mind but no time to convert them into a real post. I had lots to do at office and couldn’t concentrate on creating a post. But one thing i do without fail is to read. Even when i was really busy working, when some thought suddenly pops in my brain, i think of it, research about it and then read extensively about it. And this whole thing may take a few minutes or can even span into hours. It all depends on how busy i was the moment that thought appeared. When i am really busy like today, i spare it a few minutes, do some quick research and save bookmarks or files for future or further reading and on free days, i read and read and read all day until my boss yells at me. And today, was the busy day and in between all the office work which seems to have no end, there pops the idea of sharing about all those amazing things that i come across in all those searches. That would be a really interesting thing to tell and i always find something or the other.
So, here’s the thing, “Awesome Finds”. This takes you through one or many of the things i found that day or any time recent. I hope you all find them equally interesting and not get bored by the geeky stuff. 🙂

Today’s first find is,
http://www.gatesnotes.com/, the blog of Bill Gates.
I think you all need no further explanation about who this man is and what’s so special about him. If you really don’t know, he is this co-founder of microsoft, one of the super rich men on the planet, entrepreneur and a philanthropist. I really suggest you 
go for wiki‘s introduction rather that very poor description i gave.
Earlier today, i n
ever knew that Bill Gates has a blog and even today, i was surprised to know that he really contributes to it but not some associate or a PR Team on his behalf. I still have my doubts, but i think one should trust the man when he states so on his own site for the entire world to see 🙂 The article that led me to the blog is the Annual Letter. No, you cannot stop by just glancing at it. You have to read it completely. You will start to realise what great people really think of when they have loads of money to spare(Yepp, i think people like Bill Gates are great. Just look at what he had achieved with that brain. I don’t think i will ever do so much in this life time). I already know about the foundation and its work but i am just amazed at the facts and his vision or plans for the future. Do you know that it is just not Polio that India managed to wipe out in this decade but there’s another disease called Guinea Worm, a painfully cruel disease. There are many such amazing things that annual report tells you. One more thing that caught my eye is the amazing reports and graphs plotted on the huge data. They just catch the eye in an instant and would make you want to see what all that graph is about. Don’t panic. 🙂 This is the report designer in me talking. I can never stop admiring a good report or graph or a dashboard. I know how much hard work it takes to get that large datasets into wonderful reports. You see, your first job always stays in some corner of the mind. Okay, enough about reporting and now if i go back to the site, it seems as if he really writes it. I read a couple of posts and they sound genuine. The posts have the chill a genuine heart felt post gives. May be, the fact that one of the world’s richest man is writing those made me think so. But that is what i look for in any blog. I need that connect to the heart. One such moment and i click follow on wordpress. No wonder i liked this blog and i am sure many of us would. One line that i came across and really liked is a quote from Melinda Gates as stated by Bill, “Let your heart break. It will change what you do with your optimism.”  🙂 Also, don’t you think Bill Gates has a kind face? My colleague just doesn’t agree. Anyways, all i did is a sneak peak of the site and no serious reading. I hope you all like the blog as much as i liked it. 

One more site that i came across today is,
http://www.history.com/, the History channel website.
I am sure many of you must have seen this channel while surfing TV. I know, many of us wouldn’t
 give it a serious thought unless something interesting catches the eye. But me being the history buff i am, love reading and watching History. The channel site on the exterior looks just like any other TV channel site. But if you look into it properly, you would find a treasure of information. I knew about the channel and many of its shows before but never happened to check out the site. I stumbled across the site accidentally while looking for something related to American Civil War. Now, don’t ask me why was i searching for that on a busy day like this. I have no answer, that’s my brain and it is worse than a stray. I have absolutely no control over it. Coming back, the site has a variety of features on it which is more than enough for buffs like me to feed on. I just didn’t have enough time for it today and it was obviously bookmarked for future reads. There is a blog over there as well and it is also interesting. And again, i just hope you find it equally interesting and not boring.

Okay, i think that is more than enough for a blog post and i wish you all have/had/having a great day. 🙂 3 More days and the blogathon is over. Am i doing a little happy dance? Yes, i am 🙂 Good bye people.

Love
Sahasra

Choice

Grey’s Anatomy 11×08 Last Scene Derek & Meredith: http://youtu.be/4Qb57l7A_CM

Life is always a choice. Every single thing that happens in our life is a result of some choice we make.
The statement here is, “he is very dreamy, But remember, he’s not the sun, you are.”
To me, i know who my mcdreamy is and that isn’t everything. Once, I choose not to get taken over by that Mcdreamy and moved on in life. I just don’t know how I placed myself in a bigger mess again. To me, my life is everything. I realised today that I can never accept anyone or anything unless I really think I am ready. I am going to stand up against the whole world but I will never do something I regret again just because I have some sense of responsibility or whatever. I am so not going to care. I have done enough and no more will this go on. I am so not going to care about people who had no care or concern towards me or my feelings. People think they are doing me favours by trying to find a groom for me. But what they don’t get is that they are just ruining my life by trying to fix a problem that doesn’t exist. And I hate them for doing that.
I cannot change these people or society but I can change or at least take control of my life. I cannot let someone else take the decisions of my life. The decisions of my life has to be my choices and they will be. The decision I took today is the first step towards a life filled with my choices.
And there is something funny about the decision I made today. Wanna know? Read further.
Everyone likes the guy but I don’t.
My reasons are that I didn’t find him attractive at all. He just didn’t think it is important for us to talk before deciding. He didn’t even think if I would want to talk to him or not? And later, after a lot of pressure from the family, he agrees to talk. But what happens for real is, He just couldn’t talk at all. I had to ask him everything. It was as if I’m interviewing him. I didn’t want to take any chances. I couldn’t even feel a thing for him. And so I say not to go further. I didn’t want them to have any hopes. So I clearly said no.
You know what the reaction was? 🙂
It seemed as if the girl loves someone else. She just doesn’t look interested.
I felt disgusted. I allowed you all to do this to me. I am not even sure if can survive an arranged marriage. Why the hell did I set myself up for this. I am an idiot for doing that. I wish I wasn’t the coward that I am. I wish I wasn’t the hypocrite that I am. I wish I live in a place where I get to make the choices of my life and don’t have to fight for that.
For now, I just am glad that I am going to try to be that person I want to be and that I didn’t choose to follow the easy path but choose the tough one. The less travelled one. 🙂
Bye for now.

Love
Sahasra

Leibster Award

Thanks to the Blogathon 2015, i have too many things to post as i am continuously thinking on what to post and what not to. I was scheduling posts in advance and then holding them just to post something else that i feel i had to post that day. But there are some posts that i have been planning to post since a few months but couldn’t get them done. They are the award posts. So, today when i happened to get one more award from Carl, i really felt ashamed that i had almost 3 pending award posts and one more arrived. I just felt guilty for accepting the awards but not taking them ahead. Hereon, i am planning to accept awards only if i can do posts and carry forward them in 2 weeks span. Now, since i have already given the long intro, let me get to the award post.

So, i have been awarded 2 Leibsters last year. One from Susie and the other from Carl. They are super sweet souls who are just too caring and lovely. No, i am not calling them all that just because they presented me with a couple of awards. I am just trying to describe what they are and i am short of right words to describe them. One look at their blogs and you will know that i am not exaggerating. And if these people think that i deserve an award, that itself is a huge compliment. Thank you guys for the Leibster award and sorry that i had to club both and bring out one post. I hope you guys wouldn’t mind. The word Leibster is a German word, in a rough way means, “valued, enduring, welcome, dearest, kind and pleasant”. It is an internet award, passed from one blogger to another to show support, and encourage to fellow bloggers.

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————Thank you Carl and Susie. 🙂 ————

Here are the rules of the Leibster Award :

1. Post the award on your blog.

2. Thank the blogger who presented this award and link back to their blog.

3. Write 11 random facts about yourself.

4. Nominate 11 bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 200 followers. (I might have not sincerely followed this one!).

5. Answer 11 questions by the presenter and ask your nominees 11 questions.

So, here are the 11 Random facts about me. The truth is i have no idea what to tell. So, i’m just trying to find things to talk from your 11 Random facts.

1. I am the crazy one who questions everything and anything. It really isn’t easy to get me to do something that i don’t understand. I am one tough nut to crack.

2. I am that science student who never wanted to study science. But then, i took up science in Junior college and then did my bachelors in Computer Sciences.

3. All my life, i was the tall girl who stood at the end of the assembly line and who sat in the last benches because of her height. And since the last 8 years, i have become the fat girl. I am no longer called the tall one.

4. I desperately hate the caste and religious systems that are in place in the society i live in. I wish there were none.

5. I am never a religious person but i believe that god or some divine power guides us all the time. “My relationship with God is my personal business”, is the best line i have heard about beliefs on God.

6. I always lacked self confidence. Not sure if i have gained any in the past few years, but that’s something i think i really need to develop.

7. I have issues with Authority and i have been dealing with it since forever and i am still not sure if i will ever deal with it properly.

8. I have been trying to learn German ever since i left college and i made no progress at all. I wish i was more serious.

9. I think i am a hypocrite and there are very few people in the world who aren’t. This is not some kind of justification i’m giving but is just an opinion that i often think about.

10. I have a strong conscience and i think it will never let me go down the wrong path. I am happy i have something like that.

11. I have never played Cricket in my whole life but i love to watch Cricket. Be it any format, i never get bored watching cricket.

Aah, i’m done with the random facts about me. Now, it is nominating bloggers for the award. I am not sure whom to nominate and whom not to, as i think everyone is deserving and that is why i read them without fail. I have even seen many of you already do Leibster posts. So, i first thought not to do this one. But then, i felt that i was being too selfish. So here are my 11 leibster nominees. Congratulations to you all. And if you don’t know any of these blogs already, please visit them. They are really worth knowing.

Seema

Vidya

Aarya

BlueInsomniak

WhiteTeluguBride

David

P&R

Michd

StartingOverasMs

Paatiamma

Hazra

Then, it is answering the questions. So, first are Carl’s questions.

1. What got you into writing a blog? — I was tired of hiding all those dairies from people and just needed some place safe and secure to rant and also spread out my thoughts just so that i could get some clarity out of them. Strange thing, i never expected that i would see this day. 🙂

2. What do you hope to achieve in the next 5 years. — I want to be a happy person. I want to get a masters degree in something that i really want to. And i hope i find someone i love.

3. What is your choice for favorite exercise/sport? — If you know me at all, you must know that i am the laziest girl in the world. My favorite exercise is Yoga and sport?.. I lovvve watching Cricket. I know i’m funny.

4. What countries have you travelled to? — Countries? No. It is just one country. South Africa.

5. Early bird, or night owl? — Both. At heart the early bird but whenever i give in to any of my addictions, i become the night owl. I struggle not to be the night owl.

6. What was your favorite childhood toy? That video game machine or that chess/ludo board or that kitchen set or that biggg lego set? I think it is the Lego set. I loved it even after i lost most of the pieces.

7. If you were to choose 5 toppings for a pizza, what would they be? — Haa.. this is easy. Extra cheese, fresh mushrooms, Broccoli, chipotle sauce, sundried or normal tomatoes, Roasted garlic.

8. What is one of your proudest accomplishments? — My current job (I just couldn’t think of anything else!).

9. Are you a country person or a city person? — Both. I crave for both privacy and peace. I should say i need a balance. I am more like a town person.

10. How many times have you moved in your life time? Were they difficult? — Lived at home till 10th standard. Then moved to the junior college hostel, which is the hardest of all. Then moved to College hostel and now live in a PG House. Every move is difficult as i get attached to people and things but i cope up well.

11. If i were to fulfill my bucket list item, and come to visit YOU…. what would you like to do? — I would be more than happy to help. All you need to do is to inform me a bit in advance just so that i can be prepared.

So, that’s it. I am done with my post. I am not going to give out any questions. If you are really interested, please answer the one’s that i was asked by carl. I found them interesting.

Thanks & Congratulations everyone. I gotta go now. Bye.

Love
Sahasra

HBO Finds

Angels sing
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I was just doing the channel surfing thing when I came across this movie airing on HBO. Angels sing it is.
Was busy and so could only watch it for some 20 min or so. But the movie seemed cool. Families, Christmas, grandparents, songs, beliefs, Angels, life and happiness. You might wonder, just 20 minutes and I found all that?.. Yepp, true. That’s me. I am dark but can see happiness anywhere. That’s my gift. 🙂

Shanghai knights
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This is one more movie that I found this movie. And again, I happened to get only some 30 minutes of it. But the movie had everything I love in a movie(aah.. except the colour filled songs). It was funny, had sentiment, action, a kid and so filled with the English accent.
It had Jackie chan and Owen wilson in the lead roles. I for some reason, like Jackie chan a lot. His baby face which sometimes also look funny, his fighting moves, funny antics and humbleness. I like the fact that his movies never revolve around him but he just fits perfectly in every plot. I like a well said story rather than a plot with story just rotating around the lead making it a one man show.

Once back into my routine, I would search for both of these and watch them completely. So, lets call these as something that I found out accidentally. If I could find and watch them completely, I for sure will tell you how I felt and if my 30 min opinion stayed on throughout or not. But for now, this is all I have.
Keep living and loving. 🙂

Love
Sahasra

My English Vinglish story – 1

English isn’t my mother tongue and I am no expert. I can manage well and have been to places outside India, but I still am not 100% comfortable with the language as I have ignored all my grammar classes while at school. All thanks to my arrogance because of which I thought that I wouldn’t need grammar and I can live without it. It was only later I realised that I can live without it, but never with proper confidence.
You see, by the time I got into high school, I was already into reading. My uncle worked for this paper recycling company and would get me all the nicest books he ever came across. He opened a new world of reading to me. Comics, magazines, novels, big hard bound editions, puzzles and what not. Bless you foreigners who send out everything for recycling. People like my mum would never part from her books and other collections no matter how many years pass by. And back to my story, My mother used to monitor what I read in Telugu(my mother tongue) but never bothered about what I read in English. Now when i ask her about it, she tells me that she thought her brother only gave me comics. But among them, there was everything. Most of the adult stuff I never understood. It brings me a smile now, but back then, I’m sure that it is all something that happens only in foreign countries or something that I couldn’t understand. I just used to classify everything unknown into either of these categories. 🙂 You see, my vocab isn’t even that strong to be able to grasp all that stuff. Huh, that saved my innocence for a while. :p . But the main point is, all this reading built some arrogance in me along with the confidence and moreover, I made it a habit to leave things that I couldn’t understand and move on with the rest.
Now, while this reading helped me with all my English exams, it didn’t do good to me in the real sense. Even with grammar, I followed a rule. Read it out twice or thrice and write the answer that seems to be correct. My analytical skills were too good and my success rate used to be 90%. That gave enough boost to my arrogance and I never felt the need to learn grammar properly. And adding oil to fire is the treatment I used to get from classmates, teachers and family as if I’m some genius. And that way I completed school with totally wrong beliefs and opinions about me and the language as well. If I can go back and change a thing of that life, it would be to make better use of all the resources I was provided and be great at what I was already good at. That one wrong step and unattented arrogance led me into a world of unknown possibilities with the wrong attitude that just led to a series of wrong(not so right) decisions.

Now, this is one part of my long relationship with the English language. This has been in my drafts for long but since I couldn’t write anything new now, I was just pulling out my old drafts that could explain my journey a bit better. I will complete what I started but this is the first part. 🙂

And moreover, I have been sick for the past few days but I guess the phase has passed and I am recovering and is looking forward to a quiet weekend, which by the way is a long one. 🙂 Thank you all for the concern and love. I am glad to have this place. From your posts, I see a few others are also down sick. I hope you recover soon and be back with a bang.
Hope you all are doing well. Take care people.

Love
Sahasra

Self pity

I pity myself.
Out there at my cousin’s wedding, there is this superb pelli vindu(wedding feast) going on and here I am eating perugannam(curd rice) with lemon pickle.
Now tell me curd rice compared to a feast. No wonder I am drowned in self pity!. What? You thought I had somrthing more serious to tell? No re. It is the pain talking. So here’s the thing.
I was supposed to be at the wedding. 2 days back I shopped for 3 hours to buy a perfect dress for the occasion. Yesterday, I was breathing down the tailor’s neck to complete the last minute alterations. And today, I was down sick eating curd rice and on pain meds that are making me go crazy. My whole family was there and I am here sulking. Somewhere deep within, I dread the thought of having to face her later!
No, there’s no one to blame but me. I caused this. I let this happen. I lost track of my health. I ignored it badly and had to see this day.
This is the real punishment I’m getting for not taking proper care of my body. I, a person who dreads being at weddings, was so ready to be a part of this one and see what’s happening. If I still won’t wake up and take my life seriously, and not stop neglecting my body, then I guess nothing or no one can help me.
Aah, I feel so miserable and stupid.
I can’t write anymore. I want to remember how i felt today and hence the post as a reminder. I guess I’m done. Now I’m going back to my curd rice.

And since I’m pretty sure I may not be in the right mind to post tomorrow, I am making this a scheduled post. So, you will be reading yesterday’s rant and I think I will be all okay by then. So, no worries and take care people.

Love
Sahasra

My addictions

Yesterday, I was having a conversation with someone about addictions. It was then i truly realised that, I as a person get addicted to things or people very easily and later it becomes really hard for me to get out of such addictions. And also that I was not just suffering from one addiction but many.

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Let’s talk about people some other time since my real problem is with the things that i am addicted to. Here are a few of them.
1. Books – This includes both buying and reading books.
2. Reading blogs – Aah, what do i tell about this. I am spending almost half day at this and no wonder i have tonnes of pending things to be done at work.
3. Movies – Count movies in all the three(Telugu, Hindi & English) languages i know and then in Korean and Tamil that i don’t know but take the help of subtitles.
4. TV shows – Count English, Korean, Hindi & Telugu in their order of priority. I am a serial downloader and is very much indebted to torrents.
5. And very recently, writing these blog posts. I’m telling you, it just makes time vanish like nothing.

All these things pretty much eat all of my time and leave me with nothing for personal life. I really have no idea how i have been managing. If i am not doing any of these, i will be either working or sleeping or bathing. I was so addicted to these electronic gadgets that my eye sight went down by 2 more points. I have anti-glare glasses since college, but never did i have to use glasses for eye sight. These 4 years of working and all these along, did enough damage and it is still going on. I stopped doing Yoga 4 years back and needless to say, with all these activities that just want me to sit and do nothing else, i gained almost 10 kgs(plus the recently reduced 5 kgs)!. Thank god, I was back to my senses and was trying to fix this now, but there is a lot of damage that’s already done. I shouldn’t even think about talking the damages to my confidence and health. And with the distractions and lack of interest at work, i have been doing a lot of damage to my hard earned reputation. You see, at work, it takes years to earn goodwill and nice reputation but in an instance a single bad incident can ruin it all. These days i spend so much time reading all the blogs that I feel really guilty for not working properly. Trust me, when I say that I wasn’t able to sleep anymore after 5 and since I couldn’t dare to go walking until 7, I started reading blogs. Seriously, 5 in the morning! Today, i read somewhere about serial liker who likes posts just to get back views. No, i ain’t one. I like a post because i liked what i read and i know better than wanting to have readers that way. And if you see me liking all of your posts, it just means that i just gave in to my addiction called reading and genuinely liked your post. Right now, while i am writing this post, i had tens of things waiting for me to do. I wish i get a control before i lose everything. I used to do all of these earlier as well, but not sure why I’m so stressed out now. I am terrified, yet, out of control. For good or bad, this blogathon is making me read, write and think a lot. And I really want to do all that and still be happy and good at work. I know what you must be thinking, “Hopeless”. Exactly, that’s what i feel too.
I just wonder why do i have to be addicted to something or the other all the time. Why can i not exercise self control.  And then i found this,

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But do you really believe that? Do we really have to have some pain or sadness in our life to get addicted to silly things like these. It sounds correct but then, what kind of pain am i in? I cannot think of any. Atleast, none lately. Aah, why is it this difficult. I badly wish for a job that lets me read all day and still pays me. That way, i can be addicted to all these and still have a steady income without the guilt factor. Or at least i wish there were another 12 hours in a day so that i can finish doing everything I want and still be stress free!. It will be magic then, and i so wish for it. 🙂

Okay, i guess that’s enough for a rant. Since there is nothing i want to talk about, i am just doing the rambling thing again. Don’t worry, i am all okay and was just ranting on how pathetic, sad, stupid and tiring i was feeling. 🙂
Hope you all are doing well and at least not struggling in a love/hate relationship with blogathon like me!

Love
Sahasra

Your Dreams are Mine Now, by Ravinder Singh

Frankly speaking, i like Ravinder Singh. I liked his first book a lot. I have been reading Ravinder for the quality he gave with the first one and i am disappointed this time. All I expect from him is a sweet love story that i can really love and feel. But no. This one’s a disappointment.
I must tell you, the cover is misleading. The prologue, is something i really hate in this book. I think it is so stupid to reveal a tragic climax in the form of prologue. This prologue made me feel sad. It did not let me enjoy the beautiful and happy parts of the book. I mean, how could you understand and feel the sadness or intensity of pain when you have never really felt or known real happiness.
Talking about that, the book has its own share of happy and cool moments. This book has a promising start(If you choose to ignore the prologue!). But then the author chooses to eat pages to set up the plot. That was one long drag.
I loved the equation the two leads shared. I liked the way the author shaped up characters and how he made the whole plot revolve around the girl. But then, at some point, i started feeling that he is putting too much into the life of a first year college girl.
Then comes the politics part. I am not sure if DU is really that way. But i never came across such politics during my college life and i only learnt about them through movies, old books and stories from parents. It was too distant to relate. But i guess that’s all a part of the plot and is okay to read.
As i told you earlier, the prologue killed me first. It told me that the story is going to have a sad ending. Now, why would you read a love story when you already know that it is going to end badly. For such books, the plot and the love story have to be so strong that people should forget the end by getting so involved in the plot and they should feel a natural pain when you actually take them through the tragedy. But with a weak story line, it is too daring to reveal the tragic part in the prologue. I love Ravinder Singh for the wonderful feeling he creates with those love stories. And if i fail to get that feeling because of a prologue, then i am wondering what’s there to read or enjoy in that book. He either should have had a strong plot or a different or no prologue.
And then, why take the idea from the Nirbhaya case for the end? I really don’t understand this. Couldn’t he think of any better idea? For some reason, i did not like him using the case. I wish he came up with something better and different to end the story. I don’t mean a happy ending, but i mean a better reason or idea to reach the tragic end is also okay.
If i am given a choice, i would read his first book again and end my day with a happy feeling rather than be annoyed by reading this one.

Hope you all have a great day. Bye.

Love
Sahasra

Musing Mondays – 1

Musing Mondays are hosted by Miz B. I copied this wonderful idea from Smitha.  Thank you for helping me fill my Monday with something i love. 🙂

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Musing Mondays is a weekly meme that asks you to choose one of the following prompts to answer:
I’m currently reading…
Up next I think I’ll read…
I bought the following book(s) in the past week…
I’m super excited to tell you about (book/author/bookish-news)…
I’m really upset by (book/author/bookish-news)…
I can’t wait to get a copy of…
I wish I could read ___, but…
I blogged about ____ this past week…

I choose, “I’m really upset by (book/author/bookish-news)… ”  for this Monday. I recently happened to read Ravinder Singh’s latest book, “Your dreams are mine now”. And i was really upset with the book. I like the author and have high expectations from him and i wish he did better.

That’s all for today and many thanks to Miz B for creating this really easy Meme and Smitha for finding this. 🙂 Have a great day people.

Love
Sahasra