Melbourne Dairies #1

There are so many times that I started writing about Melbourne and couldn’t finish the post as i get lost in the memories it gave. Today, i atleast want to start this series. These days i keep feeling that I’m dumping all my sadness and pain into this blog but not collecting any of my good memories, the happy ones. If i keep on doing this, one day, when i look back at my blog, all I’m going to get is a recollection of sad memories. I don’t want that and so i made my mind to post atleast one happy post a week. No matter how small or big it is. So, it is a gloomy but happy post today. πŸ˜„ It is raining while i started for office. I have always loved rains. I’m a July born and being in a small town for most of my life, i have never known the ugly side of rains until i came to the city. And then, I started hating rain .. that is until i met them again in Melbourne. Melbourne is a weird city. Before going there, i have read that one can see all 4 seasons in one day. I thought it was a bit exaggerated. But no, Melbourne is that way. It will be all warm and sunny when you wake up and it will be drizzling by the time you leave for office and by lunch it will be windy and by evening the chill comes back. πŸ˜‰ It is like that. And the most important thing is, the weather isn’t harsh over there. And the rains, oh water comes down too sharp unlike the rains here, but the weather becomes all too pleasant when it rains. I just loved it. Watching Fidaa after being drenched in the rain is my most wonderful memory of rain in Melbourne. I think it is an amalgamation of all the things that i loved. I love rains. I love singer Rain. I love Melbourne and i loved the movie. And those long walks in that windy weather and occasional drizzles, they are just too good. I cannot wait to go back. To me, Melbourne is love and peace. At a time in my life when all I had was pain and sadness, was depressed and low, Melbourne gave me love with all the β˜€οΈ sunshine in the world. It gave me the courage to face the world despite how messy my life is. To smile at strangers, to talk to people again, to introspect, to write, to heal, to recover, and to just be myself, it is all Melbourne that helped me. Before 2017, if anyone had told me that cities have life too and that they mean something to people, i would’ve laughed at that dialogue. But now i realise how true it is. I know what it is like. When a place gives you love and hope for future, you will love it back. The live and vibrant Melbourne will always love anyone who loves it back. It is this introvert’s paradise. One day, i will be back in Melbourne, to be there forever. πŸ˜˜πŸ˜πŸ˜Žβ˜ΊοΈπŸ™πŸ˜„.

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Fidaa β€οΈπŸ’”β€οΈ

Woah, what a movie! I happened to watch it on Friday and was just unable to get it out of my head. Being the amazing movie it is, it covered all the bases; be it the waterworks it caused during emotional scenes, laughing riot with the comic timing of those situational jokes, the feeling of falling in love, the freshness of first love, the sadness of heartbreak and whatnot. If you are any bit interested in watching a Telugu movie, just watch it. If you are thinking that this is a movie review, it isn’t one. Whether you like it or not, I’m just going to endlessly rave about the movie. 

After going crazy about Varun Tej with his movies like Mukunda, Loafer & Kanche, i wanted to watch all of his movies on the big screen as i missed watching the first 3 on big screen. And then Mister happened. Though i loved the visuals, the movie is not what i would love to see. This did not stop me from wanting to watch a wonderful movie of Varun and I waited endlessly for Fidaa. Varun has been my longest and first reason to watch Fidaa and I’m a total fan now. I now truly believe that Varun Tej is a directors actor. The subtle yet crazy young guy in Mukunda, the responsible young person in Kanche, the arrogant con in Loafer, the over acting rich NRI in Mister, and finally, the subtle yet responsible plus most lovable and adorable NRI in Fidaa, all of these were just examples of how good an actor he is. And coming to how he looks, do i even need to write about it? He is a heartthrob with that height, build and looks. And is it only me who loved his eyes in this movie? I guess they were contact lenses but this shade gave him that exotic look that the character he played. Varun, you are just amazing as this Varun. Loved you, laughed and cried with you. Thank you for being the amazing actor that you are.πŸ˜πŸ’•β€οΈ

Growing up, being a girl with strong and independent thoughts, It is a given that i fell in love with all of sekhar kammula’s movies. How can you not like movies like Aanand, Happy days, Godavari, Leader and Life is beautiful? I know many say LIB isn’t that good, but i loved every single movie of his and it is a given thing that I would love Fidaa. But what I didn’t know was that I would love it this much that I’m going crazy over it. Like all his other movies, Fidaa leaves you with a reminder of all those memories that you had in similar situations in life, it leaves you yearning for more, you crave for more and most importantly, the movies have a connect with reality. How i can not acknowledge the sadness that Appaginthala scene brought to me, the rawness of those memories when a girl crushes on a guy, the feeling of being in love, cuteness and crazyness of first love, the heartbreak, the emotional confrontations, the airport hug, and the last scene where you realise that you are a lot closer to your love than you think you are. Thank you Sekhar garu for giving us such a wonderful movie, a movie that we get immersed into and yet reminds us of reality. Love and hate you for making me laugh and cry in the theatre. I’m going to watch it a couple more times at the least. It is just too good. But i must tell you, the second half felt like it is never going to end and the sadness was too much for a movie but i guess you know better and therefore no complaints. The movie is just magical​. πŸ€—πŸ’«

Have you ever heard of this that you keep the best for the last? This is that case. I loved Sai Pallavi so much in Premam that i watched it 4 times just for her. I couldn’t tell you how much unhappy and angry I was when she wasn’t made a part of Premam Telugu. No matter how much I love Naga Chaitanya, i just didn’t think premam telugu did that magic the original​ did. When i was craving for more from you, i happened to read about Fidaa and that you are paired against Varun Tej and it is a Sekhar Kammulas movie. I thought it would be a super hit in the making. I waited for it ever since but it was a long wait. With news about you being pulled out of many movies and Fidaa being delayed for an year, i thought this was never going to happen and then the songs were released and then came both the trailers. Cannot tell you how excited i was to watch​ the movie. I don’t remember of any other movie in my life that i had gone to, on the first day. I watched it in Melbourne at 8:30 in the night in a remote place all alone. I could’ve waited until the end of the month to watch it in India with Friends, but no, i couldn’t wait. I must tell you, it was all worth the wait. The movie is amazing and i loved every minute of it and loved every minute of yours. I know you are not that confident with wearing certain types of clothes and that you are a shy and reserved person but on screen, you were a different person. You are just amazing and terrific. I have seen girls from Telangana who are exactly like this girl Bhanu. This is a secret that I’m revealing today that this is my original name. If anyone bothers to read this long post, they’ll know! Anyways, only after going into the movie did i understand why the guy giving tickets, had this huge grin on his face when i said my name. πŸ˜πŸ˜‹. But I’m more like the sister character than yours so that’s another thing. The most loved scenes​ are those confrontations between Bhanu and Varun in second half. Trust me, it is not just you and Varun who were crying, emotional fools like me were also with you on it. Thank you for giving us the bubbly, chirpy, loud and happy bhanu. And the last scene where you look sad throughout the wedding only to realise that he is going to stay and you shower him with all that love at once, is just too lovely and cuteness overloaded​. I now need to find a copy of that movie Kali with Dalquer and i hope your other movies are also this good and cannot wait for your movie with Nani. Wait, i forgot to mention how amazing(read cute and sexy) you looked in all those songs and how good you are as a dancer. You made me want to dance! Love you Sai Pallavi. πŸ’•

When a movie gives me a strong female character to love, i love the movie. There are no ifs and buts to it. They speak their mind and do what their heart says. That is how i want me to be and these movies are just reminders to that. The fact that you can give clean entertiners is totally lost in our film industry and these movies are just proofs that with a good story and amazing direction, you can give good movies that can earn money too. 

Concluding my rant, I am Fidaa over this movie. βœοΈπŸ€—πŸ’•πŸ˜πŸ€—

This n that

Well, I wanted to keep posting updates regularly so that i stay on course with my list. Though not exactly, but to the maximum possible extent.

The weekend was another waste except for lots of cooking, binge watching and reading. One good thing is that my erratic sleeping hours are a bit under control. I have made​ new rules about food and sleep cycles.

  1. No food after 10pm. If at all I’m too hungry or craving for something, then i can have a fruit or a few grapes.
  2. No coke or caffeine after work hours. Try to limit myself to one coffee a day.
  3. Get back to drinking green tea and atleast one bottle of water per day.
  4. Little or no rice in main courses while adding more veggies and protein. Add soups to dinner menus.
  5. Make mental notes of sugar and salt intake. Regulate and control it.
  6. Finish food in fridge before cooking anything else.
  7. Finish groceries at hand before buying anymore.
  8. Minimal usage of Carol’s resources.
  9. Sleep early and wake up early. I know, this is the toughest of all!
  10. Make proper use of lunch break at office. Maybe, walk for 20 minutes everyday! Do something other than work.

Well, i know I’m making too many lists. But to me, making lists is the most effective way to get back on track. I’m tuned that way. I think most of the tasks on my list are actionable and pretty much reasonable. Let’s see how it goes. It will be good if i atleast suceed doing half of the list. As Don Tillman would say, it is like a Gordian knot where one of these might help me get everything done.

Talking of Don Tillman, i have started reading “The Rosie Effect” by Graeme Simson. The 2nd one in the series after “The Rosie Project” which was one wonderful book. 50 pages into it, i now think i need to revisit Rosie Project again! There seem to be lapses in memory. πŸ˜‹ Memory loss at 27(28 in a month!). Anyways, totally loving Rosie Effect but thinking of keeping it on hold and reading Rosie Project again. I’m not exactly sure where to buy the book but need to search for it. For the love of Don and Rosie, I need to reread it.

Good night ppl. Signing off for the day, Shabba Kher.

Some promises to myself

  • Sleep on time.
  • Eat on time.
  • No matter what, tell yourself “I Love You” at the start and end of the day, everyday.
  • Make 2 lists everyday. One for work and other for life. Make them happen without killing yourself.
  • Watch a movie once a week and more than one if possible.
  • Whenever you think of suicide, think of maa, paa and chinnu. And about the wonderful life you could have lived if you have just learnt to live through.
  • Try to do some form of exercise everyday.
  • Do not sleep during the day. i.e. weekends. Visit atleast one new place every week.
  • Watch all those pending series.. only on weekdays huh!
  • Completely read one book every week and write a review on every Saturday.
  • You have a wonderful phone. Take advantage of it and make sure you click 2 pictures every day. One of yours and the other of Melbourne.
  • Fall in love with yourself and Melbourne again.
  • If shopping makes you feel better, do.  Splurging on yourself is so worth it.
  • Do atleast one online course a month. Doesn’t matter how small or big it is, just decide and do.
  • Start preparing your resume.
  • Update the LinkedIn profile.
  • Sit with Dad and do taxes. Learn about your financial worth.
  • Learn the art of investing.
  • Make bucket lists for life, for Melbourne, for everything that you can think of.
  • Accept your mistakes and learn to move forward.
  • Listen, no matter what, you are always worth someone’s time and love. And ofcourse, you are capable of loving someone.
  • It is okay to be selfish.
  • Understand that you can write the best story of your life only by living it wholeheartedly enjoying every moment of it.
  • Keep looking at this list as a reminder and work on it. Keep updating it whenever required.
  • Your goal in life is to be happy not just to be someone’s daughter or sister or wife or anything. 
  • It is okay to be different and thinking like this is NOT A MISTAKE.

Someplace new

2017 – Melbourne

2016 – Kerala

2015 – London

2013 – More of Johannesburg

2011 – Johannesburg

I am gonna make this a list and update it with every new place I go be it abroad or in the country, a new place is a new place with new memories and experiences. I hope this list grows long and long and long. πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜‡

Love, Sahasra

The Kheer Story

I was reading Vidya’s blog the other day where she posted this yummy Walnut Kheer. No, I didn’t prepare it. But the post took me to another kheer recipe of hers. Plain Rice kheer which is her mother’s recipe. The love I have for Rice kheer made me want to prepare it. And the date she posted that kheer returned me to memories of my first international trip.

My job took me to Johannesburg and it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life which left me with memories for life. In the middle of July came my birthday on the 16th and I was missing my Mum so badly and set out to make kheer in that South African guest house with nothing but the basics. Remember this was back in 2011 and I was no expert in cooking(not that I’m an expert now!) and succeeded in partly burning the milk and it seemed as if the rice was taking forever to cook and I gave up immediately ending in tears. It wasn’t just the Kheer, 2 months away from home, pressure at work, and a silly fight with my roomies who are also my colleagues all added up to my emotions and flowed into tears.

It was then K, one of my colleagues who took charge and fixed that kheer and made it edible. And another colleague AJ got the cake and they were singing the song. I had a silly fight with them on the very same day, we are all super tired and weren’t on the best of terms. And yet they wanted to see a smile on my face and make me happy. 

Their effort brought a smile on my face and more tears. But this time they were more of gratitude and happiness. It was one of my very first experiences on the kindness of strangers and I am left with a memory for life and indebted forever. Those were the simplest of gestures and yet their timing reserved them a special place in my heart. Only with Gratitude, Love and Respect that I can repay them.

Thank you for those wonderful memories guys and thank you vidya from bringing those back to me now. I did make the kheer 2 days back and though not perfect, it was way better than my earlier attemps and i ate it for lunch and dinner too.😊. I was busy with a friend’s birthday party yesterday and couldn’t properly complete this post and so here I am completing it.

Life sure isn’t easy but some people just make your day with almost nothing but love and kindness. Thanks to such wonderful people.❀😊

Love, Sahasra

This and that

I can already see an end to my blogathon. I am here again at 11:40 trying to type in and publish something that makes some sense and worthy of a blogathon. The whole day just passed by and i didn’t get a few minutes to write! I must be the president or prime minister to be so busy! 

So, after being completely disappointed in me, here comes my first resolution for the new year, which is, me posting something meaningful and worthy of mine and others time as well for the rest of the blogathon. And, that’s it. No more resolutions for now.

As i mentioned in my other post, I’m going to Australia for 3 months. Melbourne to be specific. I got my visa a week back and will be flying in a day or two. Thanks to my office guys, my travel dates are still not confirmed. 

Rest assured Melb, i will me there next week.😜 And i will be there with you for the next 3 months. Thanks to you, this blogathon is going to be an easy one to me, i hope!. I’m still nervous and not sure about a ton if things but still hope that this trip gives me memories worth a lifetime. This was one of the places that i have always wanted to visit and stay.

Lots of dreams and hopes. Cannot wait to touch those skies and i just cannot wait to be there😚.Will keep you all posted via the precious blog πŸ˜„.

Take care ppl.

With love, Sahasra