Woah, it’s been 7 years!

I woke up to a notification from WordPress that I have joined word press 7 years ago. 7 years is a really long time for anything. I’m so proud that throughout all my ups and downs, this little space has been there for me. I have people who built my morale when I was feeling terribly low and there were warm cheers from someone I admire on my achievements. It has been a wonderful journey.

My life has not always been rosy and beautiful. It has its own dark moments and bright mornings. A lot happened in these past 7 years. In 2010, I joined the job that I’m still doing. Started off as a trainee and is now leading my own team. Moved from a small town to a big city. Travelled overseas for the first time and many times later. Met so many wonderful people and made amazing friends. Crushed on friends, colleagues, lost loves and finally ended up marrying a stranger. Got married and divorced in a span of 2 years. Went into the depths of depression and still hurdling many steps to get better every day. From being the healthiest person in the lot, turned into the most fragile person of the lot. Have grown from overweight to obese. Moved from tiny, unventilated, dirty hostels to my own apartment(albeit rented). Graduated from being a maggie-cook to someone who dishes out miracles. Fell in love, fell out of love, is still a confused crazy person when it comes to the matters of the heart. Loved my job, hated the same job and went equally crazy about the idiots and geniuses at work. I first started the blog on Blogspot and then after a year or so, moved to WordPress.

Like I always wanted, this blog is completely about me. Everything about me, related to me, thoughts that I thought, feelings felt, this place covered almost every emotion I have ever felt. Though the long breaks in between fail to cover some episodes of my life, they are either too good or too bad to be written or remembered via a blog. I always have a storm going on in my head. The waves and ripples of all those thoughts that I struggle to keep track of are all in there. I sometimes do wish that I had a peaceful head. But no, I am what I am and I gotta deal with what I got. That is how this space was born, as a place to put my thoughts, that helps me with some clarity. Not sure if that really happened, but this place is really like my best friend that I share my deepest secrets with. Really dark and deepest of the secrets end up either in drafts or as private posts. But in any case, I write. One of the biggest gifts this blog has ever given me is the art and skill of writing. Throughout the years, I realised that it is not just wine that gets better with time. It is the same with writing too. I developed a style and method. I do fewer mistakes and I now have the skill of conclusion. Though I’m too dark and depressing to read, my prose is readable now. It was no less of a skill and as I understood my journey, I ended up less judgemental of what others wrote or did or said. That’s because I have come to understand that every person is a work in progress and there is no point in judging anyone for anything except living our own life freeing a little space in the brain for things we love from all the judgemental stuff.

At this point, I learn a lot every day and still struggle to just survive. My health is at its worst and my brain is just back in recovery. I realised that I have an innate disdain for pretentious people and that I should go easy on others stupidity as I myself is stupid in many areas. And that if I don’t want to be pretentious, then I have to be better at everything I do and be in a position that I don’t have to be pretentious and/or tolerate someone as such. This decade has seen a big reverse V in my life where I started with nothing and end with nothing and is now in process of climbing back that steep uphill again.

With all said and written, I can only be thankful for this place, life and everything that came along. I spent a decade, the best time of my life on a job that I never really understood and with people I may never see again. I can now only hope that I make my thirties a better decade and something I would want to fondly recall one day. 🙂

Thank you 🙂

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Awesome Finds – 1

I was actually not sure on what to post today. I had a variety of things in my mind but no time to convert them into a real post. I had lots to do at office and couldn’t concentrate on creating a post. But one thing i do without fail is to read. Even when i was really busy working, when some thought suddenly pops in my brain, i think of it, research about it and then read extensively about it. And this whole thing may take a few minutes or can even span into hours. It all depends on how busy i was the moment that thought appeared. When i am really busy like today, i spare it a few minutes, do some quick research and save bookmarks or files for future or further reading and on free days, i read and read and read all day until my boss yells at me. And today, was the busy day and in between all the office work which seems to have no end, there pops the idea of sharing about all those amazing things that i come across in all those searches. That would be a really interesting thing to tell and i always find something or the other.
So, here’s the thing, “Awesome Finds”. This takes you through one or many of the things i found that day or any time recent. I hope you all find them equally interesting and not get bored by the geeky stuff. 🙂

Today’s first find is,
http://www.gatesnotes.com/, the blog of Bill Gates.
I think you all need no further explanation about who this man is and what’s so special about him. If you really don’t know, he is this co-founder of microsoft, one of the super rich men on the planet, entrepreneur and a philanthropist. I really suggest you 
go for wiki‘s introduction rather that very poor description i gave.
Earlier today, i n
ever knew that Bill Gates has a blog and even today, i was surprised to know that he really contributes to it but not some associate or a PR Team on his behalf. I still have my doubts, but i think one should trust the man when he states so on his own site for the entire world to see 🙂 The article that led me to the blog is the Annual Letter. No, you cannot stop by just glancing at it. You have to read it completely. You will start to realise what great people really think of when they have loads of money to spare(Yepp, i think people like Bill Gates are great. Just look at what he had achieved with that brain. I don’t think i will ever do so much in this life time). I already know about the foundation and its work but i am just amazed at the facts and his vision or plans for the future. Do you know that it is just not Polio that India managed to wipe out in this decade but there’s another disease called Guinea Worm, a painfully cruel disease. There are many such amazing things that annual report tells you. One more thing that caught my eye is the amazing reports and graphs plotted on the huge data. They just catch the eye in an instant and would make you want to see what all that graph is about. Don’t panic. 🙂 This is the report designer in me talking. I can never stop admiring a good report or graph or a dashboard. I know how much hard work it takes to get that large datasets into wonderful reports. You see, your first job always stays in some corner of the mind. Okay, enough about reporting and now if i go back to the site, it seems as if he really writes it. I read a couple of posts and they sound genuine. The posts have the chill a genuine heart felt post gives. May be, the fact that one of the world’s richest man is writing those made me think so. But that is what i look for in any blog. I need that connect to the heart. One such moment and i click follow on wordpress. No wonder i liked this blog and i am sure many of us would. One line that i came across and really liked is a quote from Melinda Gates as stated by Bill, “Let your heart break. It will change what you do with your optimism.”  🙂 Also, don’t you think Bill Gates has a kind face? My colleague just doesn’t agree. Anyways, all i did is a sneak peak of the site and no serious reading. I hope you all like the blog as much as i liked it. 

One more site that i came across today is,
http://www.history.com/, the History channel website.
I am sure many of you must have seen this channel while surfing TV. I know, many of us wouldn’t
 give it a serious thought unless something interesting catches the eye. But me being the history buff i am, love reading and watching History. The channel site on the exterior looks just like any other TV channel site. But if you look into it properly, you would find a treasure of information. I knew about the channel and many of its shows before but never happened to check out the site. I stumbled across the site accidentally while looking for something related to American Civil War. Now, don’t ask me why was i searching for that on a busy day like this. I have no answer, that’s my brain and it is worse than a stray. I have absolutely no control over it. Coming back, the site has a variety of features on it which is more than enough for buffs like me to feed on. I just didn’t have enough time for it today and it was obviously bookmarked for future reads. There is a blog over there as well and it is also interesting. And again, i just hope you find it equally interesting and not boring.

Okay, i think that is more than enough for a blog post and i wish you all have/had/having a great day. 🙂 3 More days and the blogathon is over. Am i doing a little happy dance? Yes, i am 🙂 Good bye people.

Love
Sahasra