Unexpected

I have had a great Monday despite the travel blues and a sleepless night the day before. It wasn’t perfect but was satisfactory. Then came Tuesday which turned out to be the worst of its kind in every possible way.

This morning, when I woke up, I told myself to do something good today. But one thing after the other kept going wrong. I still did not lose it. I still wanted to make it right. I wanted to finish atleast 4 pending tasks at work and call it a good work day. And most importantly, I did not want to distract myself with anything at work (writing, reading, watching) like I did yesterday. I still had my spirits up.

And then came the surprise when I booked a cab to go to the office. As soon as I boarded it, a wave of chilling cold air with a pleasant fragrance hit me. It is AC in combination with Lady Gaga Fame perfume. It is just amazing. It instantly triggered memories of Melbourne. I wondered if I’ll ever let Melbourne go. It reminded me of my love for the city. The chilly winters spent there, on the roads, in the rain, in the parks on sunny days, the music on the roads, those trams, that cold air that hits you when you go out of the airport for the first time, the city’s hustle, the silent suburbs, the peaceful ocean and the amazing skyline. The city that sounds happy on a Monday morning and also stays calm in its own way. It is my kind of city where you can enjoy to the fullest and yet be a silent watcher. I just cannot love it enough.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to live in that city but I desperately want to. I spent an year confused on what path I should choose. The Masters route or the PR through work route. I might be eligible for both and since I have enough experience and qualifications. The work route might be the easiest one but I desparately want a break from this work and I’m scared of taking a huge study loan for masters. And then there are other things to decide like, MS or MBA and if so where and what specialisation must I choose. I also have worries on the what ifs of me not succeeding or just not being good enough for that life.

I just don’t understand why I’m so confused and why is it so difficult for me to choose. But there is one thing that is sure from what I felt today. Melbourne will have to be a part of my life plans in whichever way possible. Even if I have to bet my entire savings and start afresh. I’ll have to be there at any cost. And now it is time to decide the how’s of it.

I never expected something simple to make me so determined. I’ll need to stay put on the thought and work this out. First things first, I need to finish the pending tasks at work and mark my first success of the day and then venture out. If you set your mind on it, nothing is impossible. Not even your ever distracting mind is unbeatable. While mind over matter is a thing, mind over mind is what I need to practice and succeed today.

Have a great day ๐Ÿ˜Ž.

Melbourne Dairies #1

There are so many times that I started writing about Melbourne and couldn’t finish the post as i get lost in the memories it gave. Today, i atleast want to start this series. These days i keep feeling that I’m dumping all my sadness and pain into this blog but not collecting any of my good memories, the happy ones. If i keep on doing this, one day, when i look back at my blog, all I’m going to get is a recollection of sad memories. I don’t want that and so i made my mind to post atleast one happy post a week. No matter how small or big it is. So, it is a gloomy but happy post today. ๐Ÿ˜„ It is raining while i started for office. I have always loved rains. I’m a July born and being in a small town for most of my life, i have never known the ugly side of rains until i came to the city. And then, I started hating rain .. that is until i met them again in Melbourne. Melbourne is a weird city. Before going there, i have read that one can see all 4 seasons in one day. I thought it was a bit exaggerated. But no, Melbourne is that way. It will be all warm and sunny when you wake up and it will be drizzling by the time you leave for office and by lunch it will be windy and by evening the chill comes back. ๐Ÿ˜‰ It is like that. And the most important thing is, the weather isn’t harsh over there. And the rains, oh water comes down too sharp unlike the rains here, but the weather becomes all too pleasant when it rains. I just loved it. Watching Fidaa after being drenched in the rain is my most wonderful memory of rain in Melbourne. I think it is an amalgamation of all the things that i loved. I love rains. I love singer Rain. I love Melbourne and i loved the movie. And those long walks in that windy weather and occasional drizzles, they are just too good. I cannot wait to go back. To me, Melbourne is love and peace. At a time in my life when all I had was pain and sadness, was depressed and low, Melbourne gave me love with all the โ˜€๏ธ sunshine in the world. It gave me the courage to face the world despite how messy my life is. To smile at strangers, to talk to people again, to introspect, to write, to heal, to recover, and to just be myself, it is all Melbourne that helped me. Before 2017, if anyone had told me that cities have life too and that they mean something to people, i would’ve laughed at that dialogue. But now i realise how true it is. I know what it is like. When a place gives you love and hope for future, you will love it back. The live and vibrant Melbourne will always love anyone who loves it back. It is this introvert’s paradise. One day, i will be back in Melbourne, to be there forever. ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜Žโ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜„.

Fidaa โค๏ธ๐Ÿ’”โค๏ธ

Woah, what a movie! I happened to watch it on Friday and was just unable to get it out of my head. Being the amazing movie it is, it covered all the bases; be it the waterworks it caused during emotional scenes, laughing riot with the comic timing of those situational jokes, the feeling of falling in love, the freshness of first love, the sadness of heartbreak and whatnot. If you are any bit interested in watching a Telugu movie, just watch it. If you are thinking that this is a movie review, it isn’t one. Whether you like it or not, I’m just going to endlessly rave about the movie. 

After going crazy about Varun Tej with his movies like Mukunda, Loafer & Kanche, i wanted to watch all of his movies on the big screen as i missed watching the first 3 on big screen. And then Mister happened. Though i loved the visuals, the movie is not what i would love to see. This did not stop me from wanting to watch a wonderful movie of Varun and I waited endlessly for Fidaa. Varun has been my longest and first reason to watch Fidaa and I’m a total fan now. I now truly believe that Varun Tej is a directors actor. The subtle yet crazy young guy in Mukunda, the responsible young person in Kanche, the arrogant con in Loafer, the over acting rich NRI in Mister, and finally, the subtle yet responsible plus most lovable and adorable NRI in Fidaa, all of these were just examples of how good an actor he is. And coming to how he looks, do i even need to write about it? He is a heartthrob with that height, build and looks. And is it only me who loved his eyes in this movie? I guess they were contact lenses but this shade gave him that exotic look that the character he played. Varun, you are just amazing as this Varun. Loved you, laughed and cried with you. Thank you for being the amazing actor that you are.๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’•โค๏ธ

Growing up, being a girl with strong and independent thoughts, It is a given that i fell in love with all of sekhar kammula’s movies. How can you not like movies like Aanand, Happy days, Godavari, Leader and Life is beautiful? I know many say LIB isn’t that good, but i loved every single movie of his and it is a given thing that I would love Fidaa. But what I didn’t know was that I would love it this much that I’m going crazy over it. Like all his other movies, Fidaa leaves you with a reminder of all those memories that you had in similar situations in life, it leaves you yearning for more, you crave for more and most importantly, the movies have a connect with reality. How i can not acknowledge the sadness that Appaginthala scene brought to me, the rawness of those memories when a girl crushes on a guy, the feeling of being in love, cuteness and crazyness of first love, the heartbreak, the emotional confrontations, the airport hug, and the last scene where you realise that you are a lot closer to your love than you think you are. Thank you Sekhar garu for giving us such a wonderful movie, a movie that we get immersed into and yet reminds us of reality. Love and hate you for making me laugh and cry in the theatre. I’m going to watch it a couple more times at the least. It is just too good. But i must tell you, the second half felt like it is never going to end and the sadness was too much for a movie but i guess you know better and therefore no complaints. The movie is just magicalโ€‹. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’ซ

Have you ever heard of this that you keep the best for the last? This is that case. I loved Sai Pallavi so much in Premam that i watched it 4 times just for her. I couldn’t tell you how much unhappy and angry I was when she wasn’t made a part of Premam Telugu. No matter how much I love Naga Chaitanya, i just didn’t think premam telugu did that magic the originalโ€‹ did. When i was craving for more from you, i happened to read about Fidaa and that you are paired against Varun Tej and it is a Sekhar Kammulas movie. I thought it would be a super hit in the making. I waited for it ever since but it was a long wait. With news about you being pulled out of many movies and Fidaa being delayed for an year, i thought this was never going to happen and then the songs were released and then came both the trailers. Cannot tell you how excited i was to watchโ€‹ the movie. I don’t remember of any other movie in my life that i had gone to, on the first day. I watched it in Melbourne at 8:30 in the night in a remote place all alone. I could’ve waited until the end of the month to watch it in India with Friends, but no, i couldn’t wait. I must tell you, it was all worth the wait. The movie is amazing and i loved every minute of it and loved every minute of yours. I know you are not that confident with wearing certain types of clothes and that you are a shy and reserved person but on screen, you were a different person. You are just amazing and terrific. I have seen girls from Telangana who are exactly like this girl Bhanu. This is a secret that I’m revealing today that this is my original name. If anyone bothers to read this long post, they’ll know! Anyways, only after going into the movie did i understand why the guy giving tickets, had this huge grin on his face when i said my name. ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‹. But I’m more like the sister character than yours so that’s another thing. The most loved scenesโ€‹ are those confrontations between Bhanu and Varun in second half. Trust me, it is not just you and Varun who were crying, emotional fools like me were also with you on it. Thank you for giving us the bubbly, chirpy, loud and happy bhanu. And the last scene where you look sad throughout the wedding only to realise that he is going to stay and you shower him with all that love at once, is just too lovely and cuteness overloadedโ€‹. I now need to find a copy of that movie Kali with Dalquer and i hope your other movies are also this good and cannot wait for your movie with Nani. Wait, i forgot to mention how amazing(read cute and sexy) you looked in all those songs and how good you are as a dancer. You made me want to dance! Love you Sai Pallavi. ๐Ÿ’•

When a movie gives me a strong female character to love, i love the movie. There are no ifs and buts to it. They speak their mind and do what their heart says. That is how i want me to be and these movies are just reminders to that. The fact that you can give clean entertiners is totally lost in our film industry and these movies are just proofs that with a good story and amazing direction, you can give good movies that can earn money too. 

Concluding my rant, I am Fidaa over this movie. โœ๏ธ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—

Short stay in Melbourneย 

I have an offer from office to go Melbourne for a period of 3 months which will be somewhere between late December and early March. 

Experience wise, it is a good opportunity and financially it means nothing but I’m considering taking it. My reason is simple. I always wanted to leave India for Europe or Australia. I can use this chance to test my theory. See if i will like the place, people, culture etc and decide of it’s worth all the immigration effort.If the decision is to move there, i will have a first hand experience of what I’m going into. 

And so, the question now is about accommodation. I was told that i will be provided accommodation for a few weeks (2 to 3) and then will have to search for a place on my own. I don’t have anyone over there who can immediately offer me some space to live for 3 months even if it is a paid one. I have acquaintances who are ex-colleagues but I’m not sure if I can ask them for such a big favour.

So, in case if anyone’s reading this, i wanted to know the living conditions in Melbourne at this point of time, what to expect and what not to expect and how can i find an affordable accommodation for just 3 months.

I still need to figure out what i will be receiving as per diem allowance and the exact location details in Melbourne.

As I’m running a bit clueless over here, any kind of links or pointers or advice is welcome. Also welcome are any advice on what to wear and what not to wear to Office in Melbourne. 

Just so that you know, i am a 27 year old Indian female with travelling plans to Australia.

Thanks in advance